Last Saturday, after my work, i went suntec shopping... keke... tis was my first time shopping wif yong... keke... but was only a short shopping trip... after the shopping, when we were in the car, he told me tis... previously he n his ex were nvr happy coming out... they always end quarreling over something n end up very unhappy go home... ok... i oso dunno wat does he mean by tis lah... on the good side, i feel glad cos at least he's telling me, he's happy together wif me... but on the other hand, i was thinking... does he still miss his ex??? i oso dunno... but i was trying not to ask... actually was supposed to go JB for supper n movie... but last min, everything was cancelled... so we went to Partyworld instead... We went to woodlands partyworld... but then it was fully booked... so we change venue to Bishan... but dunno y end up, we went cha ren zhi jia instead.. keke... Anyway its still partyworld... Then the guys all started their drinking session... Alamak... in total they drank 9 jugs of beer... all crazy already... Then poor yong was being forced to drink by loon & kang... Think they kept saying he's a happy guy now so must drink... seems like its my fault lor... Then left their cars for women to drive... Eversince i got my license, i did not really drive on the road before... n yet, tat day i need to drive from chinatown back to sembawang... Luckily the journey still rather smooth... but tis yong so bad... left me alone to drive n know wat he did... kept dozing off in the car... make me so stressed cos i dun recognise the way back... then i kept asking him to wake up.. haha.. so funny... but luckily after left CTE, he's finally awake... But i only drove till his house multi-storey carpark cos i dunno how to park car... haha... ;p End up got to stay over at his place again...
Sunday morning, think he got up at 9am, then he went for his soccer session... so i was being left alone n be pig... but at 12 plus, yong came back from his soccer session n we went to Yishun S11 to meet junxiong, haichun, delun, jianzhong for lunch... then went to watch Seven Swords... Hmmm... quite a stupid show lah... haha... ;p Inside the cinema, yong told me in the past, he n his ex watch 73 movies altogether... haizz... actually i know he doesnt mean it... but then, i feel heavy hearing tis lor... i afraid he still cant let go of his past wif his ex....
After went home, he sms me...
yong: Ya i noe u will.its been a great weekend spending time wif u, enjoy myself very much.
me: I enjoy myself very much tis weekend too... Will we remain like tis for long?
yong: I am confident we will,u oso muz have too.
me: Ok... We work hard together... I oso hope to see a future wif u...
yong: I hope to have as many gd memories wif u as possible...as a matter of fact,i a bit miss u nw.
me: Keke... U miss me ah? Only until 11 aug rite? Very fast one... :p
yong: Rite bt its until 11/8/2200...Fell so comfortable being wif u
me: Really ah... I oso feel comfortable being wif u... Somehow i actually no confident... I lost my trust in my previous r/s.. Will u help me gain back?
yong: Will try my best,learn alot from before r/s too that will not repeat them again.
me: Ok... We try our best together... I oso hope mistakes in the past wont repeat again... Hope we can maintain tis r/s...
Tis morning... during our sms, i ask him tis....
me: Dear, will u regret being together wif me?
yong: Of course not,is there something u want to tell me?
me: No lah.. I scared u regret mah.. Can i ask u tis? have u really put down ur past wif ur ex? Will u still think of her?
yong: Not at all,if tats wat u r afraid of then u dn have to worry at all. Not at all really coz i have no feelings for her liao. Juz looking forward being wif u. :)
me: I get wat u mean liao... Maybe i think too much already...
yong: Tink coz of wat happen to u in the previous r/s tat u have such wories. I am really serious abt u...
Dunno y, i m feeling so unsecure... dunno wat's wrong wif me oso... i m trying hard to get over it... but then its not easy lor... i think wat i hope to find in him most is the kind of security tat i wanted... Till now, actually he's still very good to me... but somehow, i m afraid... think sometimes i really think too much... seems tat its time i should learn to relax... hopefully i m able to do it....