Recently i been meeting all kinds of unhappiness... Last week, i was having quarrel wif yong over this place call Wild... i know to him... tis place is a very decent place... but to me i dun like tis place is not just becos they do bar top dancing n so on... but i feel tat i really dun like my own bf to go there... but i know tats impossible.. cos i can nvr be able to ask him to not to go in again... i feel sad... sometimes, i will even cry alone at home but wats the point if he can nvr understand how i feel... i m feeling down, feeling sad... we had quarrel over too much n too much... actually dun really wish to write full details here... maybe i m just feeling too tired...
To me eversince together wif him, i been giving in a lots of things... i didnt even mind sacrificing my time wif my own frens... but wat did i get? i really dunno wats wrong n wats right? In the past, everybody say me... cos i spend most time wif frens n neglect boyfriend... everybody told me i was wrong to do tat... a good gf isnt suppose to be like tis... in my tis relationship, i give in my best... i dun mind spending all my time wif my bf... but yet, i was wrong again... i know u wanted me to have a balance... i think i got his meaning for tat... from now onwards, i will learn how not to be a possessive gal n not "sticky" to him again... i believe i can do it... i need to learn how to be independent... i know ppl all all commenting i m a possessive gal... but wat is possessive? if i m not possessive, meaning i dun love the person enough.... only i m possessive, i know tis person means a lot to me... but still possessive is wrong... i really dunno to do wat is correct or wrong... i been feeling rather sad recently.... wat i wan in my life is just a happy future... i dun wish to end up like my parents... i dun wish to have a broken relationship... the kind of man i wan to marry is somebody who could live happily wif me... even till we r at the age of sixty, we r still holding hands n scrolling in the park... i just wan a simple life... i dun wan to follow the footsteps of my parents... i hate being having an incomplete family... but i really hope there's someone who can teach me wat to do... i already cooling myself down... perhaps everything need to take a step by its step... i cant rush on things... :)
An angel to watch over my past...
