My Piggy Life

Sunday, December 11, 2005

::Chicken Little::

After my exam tat day, i went to meet meifang(aw) for shopping... cos she happen to call me before i went for my exam... haha... went citilink n suntec for shopping... i bought a Tea cosmetic pouch for myself at $23.50... n a pair of Noda shoes... keke... went to crystal jade for dinner n then continue shopping at suntec... saw a top at Dorathy Perkins.... *Forgot how to spell* i find it quite nice... *like it very much* but still considering.... then wait for dear to come then go home.... keke....

As usual, thurs went back to work, work are piling... but after work, went to tampines to shop for 23rd exchange gift wif joan... Hee... bought a mug n a towel for the exchange gift.... keke... n bought my renoma wallet...

Fri, boring weekends..... cos went home straight after work n waiting for dear to be back....

Sat, dear went out early in the morning.... to go library to book place first... then i join him at 1pm.... keke.... after studying, we went back to his house n rest a while..... then we headed to marina square for the midnight shopping.... but then due to going shenzhen n hongkong soon, i didnt shop much... cos no point.... dear keep saying tat oso... its like a curse.... but still i bought a sling bag... hee.... then went to watch Chicken Little..... a nice cartoon character.... damn cute.... i like him so much... after the movie went JB wif dear dear... had supper there.... n the man doesnt understand tat i wanted salt.... keep giving me sauce until i give up.... finally then they understand wat i wan... went wash car oso.... tis time, dear tried the engine wash.... ok lah not bad, their washing is quite clean.... keke... after tat, its time to head home cos its 3am liao... so tired....

Sun wake up n guess wat dear doing now? cos raining no soccer so wet weather program... MAHJIONG!!! Going back to bed soon... i still tired tired.... haha...

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Wednesday, December 07, 2005

::Today is my EXAM!!::

Haizz.... sianz.... today is my exam... exam will starts at 3pm at Singapore Expo... its near my working place... so funny... even on leave still got to go back to changi.... n somemore almost same place.... argh... but i thought of after my exam, i can have more fun... but firstly i will suffer from my work... cos my tray must be piling up wif lots of documents.... haizz... y like tat? after exam i still got to suffer before enjoying myself... will wan to go shopping for christmas then prepare myself to go hongkong.... but heard from shangjuan tat hongkong is quite cold now... think by the time i go over, will be even colder.... think will be selling winter clothings there again.... nothing much to shop n buy.... think the only excitement i will get to see is disneyland... will try to shop in shenzhen... but i think i dun wan to carry too much hope first... keke... after coming back from hongkong, think chinese new year cum dear dear's birthday coming soon.... i might be having one whole week of rest as my co might be shutting down for the whole week.... still waiting for HR to notify us.... ok, going back to my books now...

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Tuesday, December 06, 2005

::My Past Relationships::

Yest receive a call... i was surprised tat it was alvin's mum who call.... she call to send regards to my mum, my bro n me.... had a short chat wif her... glad tat she still remember me... actually she really treats me very nice in the past... n alvin's dad oso... always ask him to bring soup for me to drink... n last time, she oso cook bird nest for me... she really dotes on me... maybe becos they dun have daughters... tats y they treat me so well...

Thinking of my past for the nite.... (anyway, just running thru my memories)

I started falling in love when i was in Pri 6 (12 yrs old), i like him but we nvr got an ans before... keke... i still remember we even play a game before... we each name 10 names n we cut off one name one by one each day.... until we are both left wif 2 names.... nobody dare to cut off one more... its really a joke... but anyway its fun... we just let it be a secret forever.... nobody wan to mention it anymore....

When i was in Sec 2 (14 yrs old), i started a mini relationship wif kelvin... when i was in sec 1, i was a quiet gal who goes home after sch... dun even wish to stay long... i oso forgot how i got to know kelvin... think thru frens ba... i oso forget how liao... he really a funny guy at tat time... i still remember he n junxian went to tell my cousin (who teach as relief teacher) tat he likes me... haha... so funny... then my cousin came telling me... actually at first i dun like him one... only feel tat he's quite nice... but was touched by him.... i remember the incident tat my cousin ask him to go run one round in the field when it was raining heavily... my cousin only joking wif him lor... n he really went to run one round in the field... haha... at tat point of time, to me, it was so touching... keke... i accepted him but think it was a wrong move ba... we didnt work things out... we break off a while later... everybody tells me he's a flirt n so on... i oso dunno is it true or not...but its all over... n now, he's married already...

After my first relationship, i cant forget him... i was holding it for years until i was in sec 4 (16 yrs old) i still like him till i was in sec 4, stupid me... haha... then due to mistake n frens asking, in sec 4, i accepted Lirong.... but it only last for 8 days i think... i cant.... we didnt even hold hands at all.... i know i dun love him... n we arent compatible in our characters.... so ended it soon.... to minimise hurts... luckily he's alrite... but dunno y he's avoiding me.... its over for so long... according to meifang, think she met lirong n fren one day at northpoint... think he's avoiding me lor... haha... dunno y oso... so funny...

My third relationship is a tragedy to me... he is mingxiong... (will have lots of stories abt him below)actually i dun like his characters.... as he always like to boast... but still dunno y, i accepted him... maybe he's too nice to me.... before our O'Level, we were always on the line chatting.... i accepted him after my O'Levels, n we work at beside yio chu kang stadium's restaurant... our relationship was fine at tat point of time... but when we left the restaurant n went out to find part time job on our own, i change... i started working in Merchant Court Hotel n always work till wee hours n he just doesnt like me working there... i like fun... i like to work there... so we quarrel n we break off.... we patch back again but then becos of same reason, we break off again...

My fourth relationship was a romantic but sad one to me... his name is daniel... It was in year 1999 when i was 18 yrs old... i know tis guy in Merchant Court Hotel.... but we seldom talk to each other... until one day, me wif my groups of frens went to Marina Square to bowl n play games... dunno y oso, he join us.... then we were chatting over there... then he asked to see my phone... n he secretly call his own mobile to get my phone no... then he started to msg me n talk to me... we become closer n slowly we become a couple... to me, i felt inferior wif him... cos he's quite good looking n i dun like to be said by other ppl... initially i got a lot of stupid remarks from a gal who likes him... then always say me... i feel so sad.... but tat didnt break us up... he's a romantic guy... actually i oso forgot wat he did... but he is a romantic guy tat touch my heart at tat point of time... i remember our favourite hangouts is at nicole highway... we will sit by there n watch the scenery until morning... he went thru wif me the millennium 2000 n i remember my christmas present was a big pooh bear... n my new year present was a set of la pi xiao xin vcds... everything is so sweet until a day.... he met his ex n chatted wif her until the next day morning... then meeting me kept grumbling to me tat he's tired... i was unhappy abt it... but think he dun understand how i feel... he feels tat i should have trusted him on tat... but my point wasnt on tis... my point was i m unhappy n tat got nothing to do wif trust... he's weird in tis thinking point as he came from a broken family n he feels tat i should have trusted him 100% but he feels tat i failed to do so... we started to have cold wars towards each other... intially he already broke off wif me... but frens around me went to talk to him n we patch back... but still, we wasnt like before n things have all changed... everybody asked me to give him more time n just bear wif it for the moment... i cant... i just cant accept it when things is no longer the same... i had a thrash out wif him... he decided to go on our own way... i accepted it... n i quit merchant court hotel... life for me for 3 weeks wasnt good... i cried my heart out... i oso dunno y i was so sad... i even cry during my lecture in my poly days... many ppl comfort me n days after i feel better... but i remember it was a tough journey for me at tat point of time... then worse is got once, i met his fren near dover area, i dunno going where wif my frens... then his frens asked me... how's daniel? Shit... i didnt know wat to ans but walked off wif a smile... my fren ask me m i alrite? i reply a yes as we r still frens... but she told me tis, if u still feel tis way means u havent got over it totally... i guess so... my heart was so pain at tat time but i manage to get thru it... i think TIME is the only factor.... i still remember at chinese new year he still msg me to ask me for movie but i turned him down.... since its impossible, i dun wish to give myself another chance to be sad again.... i gave up totally.... i didnt saw him until in year 2003... i met him at bugis... we had a small chat on the phone after tat.... got to know tat he's studying in S'pore Poly after his NS.... think he has a gf now... Seeing him did reminds me of the past but then i no longer feel sad.... cos its all over.....

My fifth relationship was a replacement i think.... his name is sean... after daniel, i was so sad tat tis guy came along n gave me a lot of comforting feelings... but i know i dun love him actually or maybe i just feel tat he's nice... but not love... then got together wif him.... then think his mum really controlled him a lot... n even his money.... he went to work as part time in AC Nelson, then he even need me to credit in salary to my account then draw out for him... if not his mum will confiscate all his money... wow... to me, i really cant accept tat.... i prefer man to be a man, then a mummy's boy.... i know i cant take it anymore so i ended the relationship wif him.... Anyway, he's married now... keke.... :)

i got back together wif mingxiong... maybe i feel tat he's still the nicest guy tat i know of.... we were back together despite many obstacles.... we had a nice time together at tat period.... think when we ended tat time, it should be the end of our relationship.... but............ we ended in year 2001 beg....

I started my sixth relationship wif alvin in 2001.... actually alvin was almost a perfect bf tat i wanted.... but dunno y, i always feel tat he didnt love me enough.... maybe becos of alicia... before he got together wif me, he was wif alicia for 2 1/2 yrs.... so everytime, he will mention abt alicia.... i know i m alrite tat he mention but i feel he doesnt love me enough.... actually i treated him quite good oso.... he's sick, i will take care of him till morning... when he's going to ns, i prepare his things for him.... actually he treats me quite good oso but think i didnt get the kind of attention tat i wanted at tat point of time..... everything came too late.... when i decided to let go my feelings for him, he then started to love me a lot.....

Half year later i went back to mingxiong.... thinking he will be the one to love me the most in tis world.... haha... its a joke... i was WRONG.... it was a big mistake.... totally big big mistake... since then he was already wif eliz at tat time... but i didnt know at all.... anyway, i left him n went back wif him again in aug 2004... everything goes on sweet but then he was already having 2 gals at tat time... can u believe it? i found out the dark secrets.... n decided to let go in Jan 2005... but he hold on... we drag till march 2005... i decided to let go totally.... dun wish to know who does he loves most anymore... i being trying to know tis but all r lies eventually.... i hate his ans... cos he doesnt speak from his heart... i had enough... he came finding me in April 2005.... i refuse to talk to him so he waited for me at my stairs.... i told him clearly despite i m still too hurt by him....

My seventh relationship which was siew was a mistake too.... i thot w/o a past, as he did not have any gfs before, i will feel secured n happy.... but no.... cos he knows nothing abt relationship.... he doesnt know how to make me feel happy when i sad... i dun enjoy his accompany alone... we just cant work out to be happy wif him alone... he's a nice guy... but there's too much i cant accept... i know now i wan to find is a man who can live wif me till old n not now only.... i could only say sorry to him.... cos i think he must have fear towards relationship now.... but tats the least i can do....

My relationship now wif yong i could say its a mixture... a mixture of all feelings.... dear dear did gave me very good feelings to have start off wif tis relationship.... everything is neutral to me... i enjoy dear's accompanyment alone... even didnt go out wif frens, just the 2 of us alone, i m fine.... actually i was thinking is it i had lower my expectations of wat i wan of a bf... i oso have no ans... cos i do change when i grow older.... my thinking had changed over time.... all i need from him is to understand me more... cos i m a gal who sometimes will let my mind wander abt and think a lot... i just hope he can understand me more.... n from my past, i really need lots of secure feelings from him.... cos i lost my security in love.... i only hope to find it all back... i can say among all my relationships, i really did treasure tis relationship more.... i wont wan to do things tat will hurt our relationship.... like wat u say, i hope to see rainbow wif u together.... i would like to let go of all my pasts..... my mistake in the past was to hold on to my past too much.... i cant let go.... but i m trying hard to let go all now... n i know u will support me rite?

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3:04 PM

::Exam Week::

These 3 days are on leave as my exam is tmr... so sian... no mood to study for exam oso.... but trying hard... hoping to get a pass in my exam... maybe christmas coming... my heart only feel like playing n shopping... haha... die liao... like tat goes on i can nvr complete my studies... since last year till now, i dun have mood to study.... its not becos of relationship, it will be my parents... hopefully 2006 starts, everything will be better for me... i should build back my confident n study hard... but sometimes heart feel so heavy tat i cant make myself to study.... only hope everything will change for the better.... being down on my luck since 2002.... its been 4 years... hope everything is over... 2006 will be a better year for all.....

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