Today, i woke up at 5.50am... getting up very early.. preparing myself to leave home very early today... cos i m going to try taking bus 854 to work... i reach bus-stop at 6.50am... bus came at 7am.. to my surprise, the bus journey only took me 40 mins... so i walked in slowly from AML to my office... guess wat time i reach my office? i reach my office at 7.54am.. scan in at 7.54am... tis goon du me lor.. should have took bus long ago... n somemore take 854 is cheaper than i take train n change bus 15... haizz... hope its still not too late...
Today i receive a belated birthday present from my director... she bought me a Le Sports pouch cum tissue holder... ;>
My dear lor.. yest mention abt his ex again... he told me abt tis joke... but to me, it doesnt seems to be joke n i feel affected... he said tat his ex got to know tat he had a gf now... so he went to scold baozhong... cos when he got to know his ex had a bf n getting married... his ex scolded baozhong oso... so now, he oso went to scold baozhong... in msn lah... i was there mah... at first i told myself... aiya nothing much... not to be too bothered over it... so i was trying hard not to mention... but i know i will think a lot... i keep guessing wat is he thinking... somehow find tat he's still bothered abt his ex gf getting married thing... i dunno lah.. but i m feeling rather unsecured.. n due to my past experience i got... i know keeping everything to myself wont help me n him getting anywhere... cos no matter how much i love a person... if i start to have doubts, i will try not to love the person so much... n i will slowly let go... tis is wat always happen in my past relationships... i learnt my mistake... i chose to tell him how i feel...
me: Dar,actually i have a bit of unsecured feeling..Do u really love me? As much as compared to ur ex?
he call me but i din manage to ans his call...
yong: U pig,must be sleeping on the train right,never ans my call. Dear, there is no compare btw u n her coz i didnt love her whole hearted. Be coz of tat,i learnt to cherish the next one which is u. I am sorry to mantion a bit of her yesterday coz it was suppose to be a joke only. No amt of words can prove anythin,only time can prove. I can only tell u i am damn serious abt u now....
me: Maybe i sensitive lah.. Somehow feel tat u still mind things abt her.. cos i can sense tat u still feel angry whenever they mention bryan... Then can see u still angry abt she left for bryan..
yong: Oh,tink i got too carried away wif my not funny joke liao. The thing is coz its no issue now, tats why i can joke abt it lor.. Only things tat u have got over can joke abt it.
me: Maybe i took ur joke too seriously.. Sorry dear.. Dunno y i suddenly feel so unsecure.... Maybe its due to my ex oso...
Then he called me... explaining to me tat he really serious wif me n mind how i think of things... looks like i mistook his meaning again.. sorry dear... i shouldnt have doubts in u... i should have trust in u... i m sorry...